Well it is Friday

ling should be in the midst of cooking and serving right now . Running around trying her best to serve make everyone there impressed with her training. Excited to beyond comprehension waiting to orgasm after a long week of denial. Then she must mastubate in front of the party before cumming. What thoughts must be going through her head what sweet tortures Sir Garrick is dealing out in my absence. I will make an interesting read indeed tomorrow.

I have been told that I might not be sympathetic to my subs in the way that I ask about what they need . It will be interesting when I ask ling if her needs were satisfied if I understood what she needed. Yes I am a switch being one I understand the thrill embarrassment and utter joy she feels from a good session. I know the feeling of need and I know when the session does not live up to anticipation. SO ling I hope it was all you could ask for and more my pet I wished I could have been there in solid form not just a shadow or what might have been perceived as a blur in your vision as you orgasm.

Sleep well ling

a tag that I sort of liked

Early morning reading of Master and butterfly's blog I stumbled across this tag. Usually I quietly run from tags and surveys but I left a comment and it was fun. So if you want to go ahead if you do not I fully understand as I normally feel that way too.


If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, please post a comment with a COMPLETELY MADE UP AND FICTIONAL memory of you and me.

It can be anything you want BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE.

When you’re finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people don’t ACTUALLY remember about you.

Come on…I dare ya! ;)

It is funny

I have run a little experiment with ling. I wanted to find out how well subs take to pressure and deadlines. Over the past little while I have been a kind Dom and allow her to masturbate for 3 days 3 times a day. Now she is in orgasm denial until Friday. She seems to be doing a lot better since the denial has started. Exercises are up to the level she should be at. Other tasks are now completed on time. Sir Garrick will have one horny little sub on his hands come Friday. I hope his bondage ropes will be able to contain the orgasm.

That said I was thinking of giving ling an option that she can masturbate on Friday at the party in-front of everyone or wait another week to release herself. The idea of her waiting another week hmm we would probably feel the shock waves when it did go off . Then again masturbating in front of a group of on lookers hmmm might feel the shock waves from that too. So what should I do humiliation in front of others and relief or increase the enjoyment and make her wait? A third option I can let Sir Garrick decide based on how well she does at he party. That is interesting oh choice and decisions that Doms have to make it can be very frustrating and tiring can it not ling?

The image

A movie made many years ago in the seventies I believe. It cover some taboo subjects such as females urinating on screen and the lifestyle. I did not like the way the male Dom wanabe was portrayed but I found that for a film of the seventies it was quite enlightened. Based on a story called the training of Ann I felt it was a good depictation of the lifestyle view as much as would be accepted by the general population. I have been told that unlike the film the story of O where the ending suggested that Sir Stephen would go through some trials of his own to prove his love for O. Suggesting that there would be a switch of roles.

Oh did I say the word switch oh I love that word. In the movie the Image the Domme is actually a switch . This is hinted at through out the film. At the munch today I found that more and more are switches than I first thought. I had great fun at poke fun at the purist pointing out how switches can play with who ever and are not confined by the concept of roles. I am happy to see that Master and butterfly had started to enjoy this in their relationship. I have nothing against Dominants and submissives that never switch all the more power to them. It is just nice to see that I am not the only one. As my friend Sir says a switch is someone that has not made up their mind yet. That may well be but hell it is fun being indecisive.

I love questions

morningstar has been a friend of mine for years through when I subbed and Dommed for quite a few years. We have agreed on many points and disagreed on many others. she has always made me think about things I have said with her insight into the lifestyle with questions and thoughts. she is more of a purist when it comes to remaining in one role where I am switch , one of the subjects that we have opposing views on. Of course if you do not hear from me in a few days I am having coffee with moringstar today and I will let you draw your own conclusions (LOL)

SO for my friend here is my response to your question.


From morningstar:

Cloud...... i have a question for You... I love questions

describe the pain .. the intensity.. the simple feel of a flogger.. from a whip.. from a cane.. from a tawse for me please??

For me a simple flogger is like a strong massage , a whip has much more of a bite to it a cane well a cane is nasty at best. I feel the stroke when it lands and it continues well in to the next stroke. It is a sting it has the deep burning sensation and if done right feels like it has cut you to the bone. There is always an after feeling and the welts and abrasions left are quick to open I can feel a good caning for days afterwards. The tawse I have not felt therefore I do not use it on others but I love the warmth of a leather strap how it builds I miss it when it stops. Sanding something that not many do which is causing abrasions with a fine sand paper then applying alcohol or vinegar can cause a nasty pain that cannot not be soothed easily. The pain endures for quite sometime if you like you sub to dance around or squirm a lot I wool say this is one of the better ways just be prepared it cannot not be stopped once it starts you have to wait till it subsides and those minutes seem like hours.

Now describe how each of those toys feels to me... the pain.. the intensity .. all of it..

I could not tell you what you feel, only that I would know what type of sting it has and when I should use it. Perhaps it would help in the judgment of a new Dom as to what strength to use with each toy


Now tell me how a Dominant who perhaps is NOT a masochist can truly KNOW what the pain feels like for me??
Well they cannot but I seem to remember a certain sub saying that she wished she could use a whip on a Dom so that they could understand what it is like when it wraps and how it destroys the mood . This theory just takes it a little farther

AND as for being a Dom for a day?? how can any sub honestly know the feelings / the responsibilities for a Dom ?? i have no desire to know what it feels like to HIT someone...... i did it once.. i made the person wince and i thought i was going to be sick to my stomach......

I can understand that but to be a Dom you do not have to cause pain. Bondage does not have to be painful it can just be restraining and what better way to tickle someone if they are restrained! Again did you not try to do some bondage and found out how much concentration you must have to be successful. I think at least for me I gain a great amount of respect and understanding when I fail at things for those that do it effortlessly.

sorry but i just don't see how this theory (that many hold) of "walking in the other's shoes" (so to speak) can bring a whole lot of benefit...

Well what brought this to mind was an idea that someone who knew nothing about the lifestyle could look at a site and have enough knowledge to become someone's Dom. I found it ridiculous and dangerous for someone to think that they could give what the sub needs by reading and not experiencing any part of the lifestyle. We know that some sites go very extreme and some are only fantasy so for me the benefit would be that this new Dom did not think that he could pick up any instrument of pain and wail away. Nor should he think that the sub is a doormat as depicted in some site to be used and abused with no regard to her needs, wants or limits. For me this type of education would be the same as saying I am going to run the Boston marathon tomorrow, with out having at leasted walk the distance first.

To bodybuilder my best time for a marathon would be the 1975 Montreal marathon, as soon as I finished it I will post my time.

I hate running

I hated running but I played lacrosse and there is no book that tells you how to run or build stamina like running. Just look at a marathoners face , they might be happy in what place they finish but damn it hurts after a while.

A blog by butterfly has brought this thought to the fore front for me. Through out the ages Masters have always had an apprentice. Knights had squires trades men had their helpers it was the one true way of learning the only way. Then books of learning were developed and those that taught gave knowledge but not the practical of lets say cutting a piece of wood and what it takes to make a smooth straight cut. Nor can you develop the idea of fear and courage if you do not experience it first hand as the squires did.

So now I am about to say that the purist of the lifestyle are not as knowledgeable as to the effect of some things in the lifestyle. I fully agree with butterfly and will say that anyone who wishes to be a master should experience what it is to be a sub. I feel the eyebrows raising already, but that is okay I know that there are masters and subs that will agree fully .

My arguement is if you do not know how the whip feels how can you wield it. How can you break a board with your hand if you have not punched bags and bags of sand you do not know first hand what it feels like to do that for hours. It is nice to have fantasies and have these great ideas but if you do not know the e damage of lets say isolation of a slave as punishment can cause on the mental state of the human then you should not play with it. If I tell a child that if they touch the flame it will burn they will still try. We have all played with the flame of a candle to see how close we can get before the burn sets in, which is better knowledge.

Yes I have switched many times and I do feel that I have a greater understanding of pain and why it is enjoy and service and why it is fun. I think it has greatly helped me understand the mind of a sub. That said and I can hear some subs go yes you are so right well subs it is not a one way street try being a Dom or master one day try keeping up with the needs and demands that subs put forth. Tempering sound judgment with the wild ideas of a sub of what should be possible in time and space provided. subs get the release of the days tentions by their service and play session but a Dom does not they still have the days events playing in their mind when they raise the paddle and must control the strength used.

I believe it was St Andrews day that had the knights of old change position with their squire for a day and to me that is not a bad idea to keep one's perspective.

Contact or I have no idea what you want.

I was contacted by a women yesterday interested in my profile on well you know one of those sites. She said to me that she was a slave and knew well the meaning of it. So I was interested for at first she answered the questions all right until oops, my definition of a slave vs a sub. Yes she sounds like a very good sub one that has demands on her Dom in a more vanilla way. I asked did you read my profile and what I am looking for"yes " came the reply. So you have no problem that I call you when I want not when you need. That you are just property to played with. Yes hesitation has arrived. " Well we have to talk about that' hairs are standing on my neck. I am sorry I said did you read my profile well sort of you asked for a slave. Okay after those words where I say my definition did you read that? Well I know what a slave is. Not my idea of a slave read again and think about it.

So should this be a rant on the school system that has failed in the 3 Rs. Or should it be for those that respond to profiles to be a bit more careful of what they think they know. Perhaps I should write in French I might be more understood. I think I need to re-do my profile

Just a rant >

Bunnies and carrots

Well I just want to say to have a great holiday weekend and to point out that this is another weekend that has bdsm connotations. First of all exactly where do those eggs come out of the Easter bunny any way ?Have you ever seen a bunny that has eaten those eggs? Why is it they are not chocolate carrots? And what of the Easter hare where are they ?


Last let us talk about carrots are there dominant carrots ?You know those carrots that stand out larger than reality types? Does size count in the carrot world? Is quantity important or quality.





Do carrots have specific roles do they stay in those roles while in the garden or just when it is show time on your plate? Which carrot role should you eat first? Are carrots into piercing or just into unauthorized entries?




Are carrots Doms, switches or pure subs? Do they like to be roasted or boiled? How long can you keep carrots in bondage? What is the safe amount of time you can suspend a carrot without doing damage to it's leafy parts? Should carrots be include with other vegetable in the subby Olympics ? Should you practice safe sex with carrots?



One last question how do you explain the concept of putting a man in a playboy bunny outfit without a carrot somewhere? Is he smiling maybe there is a carrot somewhere?


Well you all have a great (politically correct) holiday. OOOOps one more one more question how do bunnies change carrots into chocolate eggs anyway? Is it true that only male bunnies lay the eggs? That would account for those female bunnies giggling a lot around Easter would it not.

Hold back the demons

Having a vanilla life and a bdsm one intertwined must be fantastic to be that close to living and loving in the fashion that you desire. Commitments clearly defined, roles never change absolute joy would it not. Then there are those who cannot have such dreams on a 24/7 bases. We must battle the demon of desire and want balancing then with what must be.A question on another blog has inspired this post the question put to a couple who share a similar life as I: Why don't you just leave the vanillas you are with and be with the person you want to be with? I do not belittle the question nor the person who asked it It is a good question ,so simple in nature an easy decision is it not. In my case and theirs I would have to say no not easy at all. Not easy to have a life for 25 years then say okay I am tired of this and found what I really want. First of all is it consensual? Even though my wife knew of my desires knew of what I have done the idea was I sleep in her bed when the dawn comes. Nor would this be sane in anyway for my children to understand that Dad likes to spank slaves but never brought a hand against them. Would it be honourable to say thanks for nursing me to health and cleaning me up and have a good life see yah!I know there is one that suffers as I do for the same reasons. Honour holds us apart and a sense of duty to do less would mean that we were not honest with each other from the beginning. So is it an easy question to answer, yes. Is it easy to do , no. Not with society as it is today. I have learnt that this society believes in that saying "you can't expect to have your cake and eat it to".Always negative nothing is possible then what is acceptable to them. No reason to have cake is there? Except for the taste, that one mouthful, it will stir memories of happiness on a somber day and make reason of a cold life. So here is a simple question for those that cannot understand: Is there a difference between Demons, honour and duty?

As for my friends that have shown so much love and caring I hope it is easy for you I hope your love story can continue. I wish for you that the barriers fall and acceptance is there for you. As for the one that asked the question it was a good question just not an easy one to answer.

Beginnings of a name

Ah the seventies......




Some have ask where did you get that name from, here be the answer. In days of olde and days gone by there was a club in the ancient land of Chicago called the Green Door. The club was private and into a form of the lifestyle based on feudal times. It was not this club that interested me in the lifestyle but it is where I took the name of CLoud Darklight.

Of the many players there were areas of the club that some liked better than others. I enjoyed an area away from the light away from the stage where the pleasures that I inflicted were for myself and my slave to enjoy and few others. There were those that had more of an exhibitionist like than I they were of the light and I was of the Darklight. The name stayed with me through out the years when ever there was anything to do in my life dealing with medieval times that was the name I went by. Cloud was give to me by my girlfriends at the time seems I was a bit gloomy at times but that should be for another blog. So there it is a name.

Not a picture of the club but one of the toys I favored. I would not say that the club was truly a bdsm club just the feudal system or our concept of it lends itself nicely to the lifestyle I say with a smile. Much easier to explain that you are into historical reproductions then to explain the joys of turning someone's ass red. One must be honest but only as truthful as it takes to answer the vanilla's questions. Any questions?

Summer colds start early

Yes I am sick and grumpy and takem to my bed.
Being away from my routine I expect to see blogs from you all .
Stay well my friends

The last to leave

I worked today in a flat where water dripped and memories were tarnished. We rescued what we could. I spent time with a friend which I think was more important then what we could save. Another friend said good bye to a family member which has sadness to it no matter how brave our faces are. I came home hoping to find solace in my family and enjoy the rest of the evening laughting to rid my self of sad feelings. We were told that our youngest has decided to move out in 4 months. What can I say memories are so important, it is the only thing we can hold on to.

Tire changes waiting for summer

Spring is supposed to be filled with growth and new life. Okay where is mine. I have changed winter tires into summer ones I have done my spring cleaning and set my clock forward. Where are the fairies and eleves to do mine. I feel like a hibernating bear I have enought of fat to last a few more sleeps let me sleep. I bet they are all waiting for moringstar to open her secret garden so that they can go lounge in the sun.

I have a grunpiness about me these days that I cannot seem to dump. Of couse seeing the ground again covered in snow did not help last night. I hurt in all my joints and need a good work out alas there is no ass to beat now a days. As for walks, ba hambug I have walked around this earth at least twice now no more shoe leather will I give to the soil beneath my feet it has had enough. I am healthy enough at least as much as I am willing to do without some reward. The easter bunny just does not cut it, unless she wears a costume that when peeled off reveals a naked slave inside (she can leave the cotton tail) as my luck goes I think I would find something bear and the tail would loose impact because of all the hair! morningstar wake up those damm fairies

I have tired from winter and need summer, camps and other wild things to go on so that I might shed this shroud of winter's night from my shoulders. Talk to them PLEEEEEEEEEEEEEASE

Gregorian chants

They have a way about them. They bring peace and calm to me they bring me to a time when all was easy there was right and wrong no grey allowed. As promised to some here are my house rules remember they are my rules not some edict from strange creatures of the night with iron rings and carvings of black roses upon them. They are simply what I like done in my house when slave I have. This is the second posting of them seems I had a problem with html script I hope this is better

Houe rules of Darklight

All activities are to be safe, sane and consensual. The extreme of the lifestyle forces a great responsibility on all to know how far we can go with play. I expect all to govern themselves accordingly and to err on the side of safety.

Rules of Use

§ No use of the houses slave or subs without permission from Me.

§ No drugs or intoxication is allowed before play of any sort. Use of drugs and intoxication will not be tolerated. A glass of wine may be provided at the end of the evening on occasion.

§ Smokers are requested to smoke outside on the back porch. However, during cold/inclement weather, smoking will be permitted in the entranceway.

§ Like a dojo there are no shoes allowed in the house, but slippers are permitted.

§ Sexual abuse of collared slaves and subs by their respective Dom/me is permitted in any room of the home, except where the door is closed.

§ Dom/mes are requested to bring their own toys for use during a play session.

§ Gags will be used on subs/slaves during play to avoid undue concern of nearby neighbours.

§ Blood sports, including knife play, needle play, branding, piercings and severe sessions with prior arrangements and consent will be permitted.

Outdoor play or exhibition to the general public will not be allowed.

Protocol

§ All Dom/mes are to be treated with respect by slaves/subs. Which means that the etiquette shown from a child to an adult is expected at all times.

§ subs/slaves are to be treated with respect, as they are someone’s property. Respect must be shown to all in My abode.

§ All unfamiliar Dom/mes shall be addressed as Sir or Madam. Familiar Dom/mes shall be addressed by the title they are known by.

§ Masters may dress as they wish. Subs and slaves should dress as to the instructions of their Masters. Slave outfits, harnesses, and total nudity are all permitted and welcomed. All are to wear appropriate attire to and from the residence.

§ subs/slaves must ask permission from their Dom/mes to enter a room or leave it. The kitchen and hall are safe areas for subs and slaves, and can be entered by all.

§ No sub or slave is permitted on the furniture, unless ordered by their Dom/me for the purpose of display or punishment. A cushion on the floor will be provided.

§ All subs/slaves will aid the house slave in the preparation and serving of refreshments and food, as they know the tastes and requirements of their Dom/mes.

§ subs/slaves may only initiate conversation when greeting or helping a Dom/me.

§ Uncollared subs are under the protection of the house. They shall abide by the rules of the house for house slaves and subs.

§ Collared subs shall abide their Dom/me’s wishes and conform to the standards of house etiquette.

Yes I still use a hankie.

I carry two as a matter of fact. All those that say oh that is so horrible and I should use a tissue, do not understand somethings. First off if you are environmental friendly the last thing you wish to use is a tissue. It is bleach, chemically treated wood. Wood being the only good part of that combination. A hankie is cloth that is washed and reusable but more than that. It is a gesture of caring.


It is an offer to a lady in distress of comfort. I just cannot see myself offering a tissue to women in some dire upset. A piece of linen is warm and comforting it soothes like giving a hug almost. My father always had us carry two of them one for yourself and one for others. He used them to bandage a wound or stop a child's tears. He made hats for little girls and when we were young made pirates bandanas and cowboys scarfs of them. Most of my toy soldiers had at least one parachute ride with hankie and string attached. They also made excellent eye patches, I lost a lot of eyes in battle and adventure must have been close to a hundred before I was six.

Countless construction workers staved off sunstroke because of them. So for those that scrinch up their noses or go red faced too dam bad. IF you do not like it then go stay in your glass bubble and close your eyes. If a child scrapes a knee or a women sheds more than one tear and I am near by I will first offer my hankie for comfort. And yes it will be the one I keep for you not for myself.

Well I am at the moment

Sort of a time of frustration, for those of you who read lings blog Please note that she had surgery to remove her appendix and will be off line for a while. Sir Garrick has kindly let me know of the situation with out a friend in far off lands I would not have known for a while about my sub so again a big thanks to him. Now subbies and slaves ling is in trouble when she gets back you see she was complaining to everyone about a pain in her side except ME. She has a bad habit of over extending herself to the point of not caring for herself.

This goes against the trilogy of health , family and work. It also flies into he face of being the most honest to your Dom. It destroys the idea that the sub is responsible for the upkeep of the Masters property Without knowing the smallest details in a sub's life a Dom has a hard time to protect his property. Make it worst is when there is distance between you or you can not spend all the time that your slave or sub needs with them. You rely upon the subs/slave to keep you informed of health issues and their needs. I do not mean every sub/slave should whine about everything but certainly "Sir I have had a funny feeling in my side" would have been nice. Judgment is critical and open communication.

Subs/slaves have to get it into them that they are there to give 100% when Master calls whenever he calls. Inbetween the times he calls you work on keeping yourself in perfect condition so when the call comes you can give your all. Well you cannot do that if you are not well or something is wrong in your life. Masters,Doms,Tops understand the world is not perfect or at least most do. They demand what they feel can be given not the impossible and they understand health issues at times maybe more than subs/slaves do.

SO when miss ling is fully recovered we will be spending a few hours with the intruder in place writing an essay on why subs should keep their Masters informed and how to politely do it. I will also be posting for her rules on communication just for her benefit for the future. Here is a teddy for you ling I hope you are well soon. When you are, better bring a cushion with you your ass is going to be sore until you have learnt your lesson!