Feeling useless is an thought I cannot handle well nor is the sadness caused by it. When I realize I can have no effect I recoil and become a sad angry child.I do want to talk about it I just had to write itdown some where to reliece my emotions.
Thank you.
There is a sadness that comes with Christmas unfortunately. As I age it seems to be more and more prevalent with my age. I think it is the excitement that I have and the lack my family has. Compounded by recent incidents it is overtaking my joy for this season. A very lovely dog was staying with us and I have grown quite attached to it. I love animals and always wanted a dog when growing up but could not money , space and a brother taht was allergic.Though I have foster dogs about 10 of them I ran into the same problems when I was older this time it was my kids that were allergic. Unfortunately this dog bit my son under strange circumstances . Not that the dog was right to bite but I can understand why it did.
Now the dog will be taken away to spend its remaining days with my son's girlfriends father. It will not have the company for all in the house it will not have some one with it all the time nor some one to pay attention. The father has already said the dog is too old and I know he will work on her to put my friend down, and I have no power to stop it. to it. And I will loose a friend. This is when I hate the rules of ownership is not right but must accept them.
Tonight I am off to shop for presents and my lost spirityet the one that would make me happy will be the source that creates the greates sadness at this time of the year. Some how I do not really feel much like a strong and powerful dom. I have made things right in peooles lives I have save children and helped Monarch butterflies but never seem to do the right thing for me. a very sad and solitarty word the word me just never seems to get it's just due
So the lights are up. the tree is decorated and some presents are wrapped. IT is just my spirit is broken and gone for now.
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Monday, December 15, 2008
Ideas for Holiday parties with your slaves
Inventive ideas for Christmas
1. Ting a ling bells are always great nipples testicles ankles and wrist collars with belles. Certainly a slave bouncing around doing his tasks will only lend to a festive spirit with the tinkling.
2. The Christmas goose as per the Christmas Carol 12 days of Christmas. Each day being the number of fingers used would be fun on the twelfth day ten fingers and two fists yep that makes twelve does it not.
3. Oh Christmas tree well if you attach the hand to the ankles then bring his feet over so he is resting on his shoulders. Spread the ankles wide that sort of give a shape of a tree. Clamps with bells can be attached to his testicles down around his ankles then to his nipples. You can sting garland hang ornaments and of course the star has to go on or in his ass to be the highest.
4. Chestnuts roasting well this one are easy hot towels then a good close shave followed by putting the testicles in a bucket of snow. They should shrivel up and have a similar look as roast chestnuts. Now for the hot part lovely hot wax dripped on. Festive coloured candles would be nice to use.
5. Stuffing the turkey always a fun thing not hard to do just see how much of what you like can be inserted and held. Grapes nuts carrots Potatoes the choice is yours just grab the penis and testicles and with a little oil insert the desired ingredients. A nice surprise for the dear little slave includes some ginger root with the mix Tape the cheeks together and watch the fun. There will be a lot of gobbling and prancing around I am sure. Do not forget to baste or oil well another variation is to grease every thing including his hands after applying the tape and then tell him he can empty as soon as he can get the tape off that could be good for hours of entertainment depending on the tape job and the amount of oil.
6. Hark the slave does song attach the testicles to the ankles in a squatting position and apply a heat rob of sort to his testicles and in his anus and see how much of a soprano he is give him a Carol to sing when it is over then let his balls go if he does not sound in key well do it over and over till he gets it right.
7. Joy to the world my ass is red. Well simply said a paddling for twelve minutes Oh just to make sure it gets red make sure the ass is nice and cold a nice bucket of snow is always a good thing.
8. And now we don our gay apparel well pretty obvious well take any slave. Get red, white, green stay up stocking matching panties and bra with a some thing pretty for his neck get a skirt that covers but not that well and a slut top for him shoes would be wonderful the higher the heel the better causes them to walk slowly. You can put on make up and a wig just make sure that noon could mistake him for anything then a man in women’s clothing. Then toss him in the car and take him for a ride. Try to find a quiet corner store of gas station and have him pump the gas or go in and buy some thing that he has to ask for. Hopefully a woman is working and you have scope out some thing that is hidden away. If the woman is bored she just might make a few suggestions for you as what to do with him. This should bring about Christmas colour quiet quickly and put everyone in the spirit of giving.
9. Ding dong it is not so long. The pulling and stretching of the testicles and penis. Every Dominant in the room is given the chance to stretch and pull the slaves penis and balls a total of five minutes each before and in-between the anatomy is cooled down in snow when each Dom is finished the slave is measured what ever the larges measure that Dom wins a tongue bath of any part of their body. Should there be any accidents on the part of the slave well he must lick it up and continue if there are too many accidents add a bit of Tabasco sauce with is dripping that should put the fire in him to play properly at Christmas.
10. We three dominants, just those three dominants with strap-ons dildos or their own equipment and a slave with two orifices well guess that means a male slave. Play the carol we three Kings and when a new king starts to sing switch positions of the Dominants. Play the carol three times. Who win s the dominants silly the one not in the slaves ass or mouth when the carol stops decides if they should play the carol three more times depending on how my dominants have not yet cum
11. OH little dicks this is easy of all the male slave the one with the shortest dick is spanked twenty five times on his ass and then 24 on his dick with a six inch plastic ruler by all in the room and this is the time when a small number of is a good thing guests that is not penis size.
12. T’is the time for bondage and follies. The poor slave that has had to endure these past 11 tortures should get a rest and a break but hell that is a slaves lot in life tied the poor boy up in your favourite position and then reflect on how much you like to give and he likes to receive so have fun. HO HO HO
1. Ting a ling bells are always great nipples testicles ankles and wrist collars with belles. Certainly a slave bouncing around doing his tasks will only lend to a festive spirit with the tinkling.
2. The Christmas goose as per the Christmas Carol 12 days of Christmas. Each day being the number of fingers used would be fun on the twelfth day ten fingers and two fists yep that makes twelve does it not.
3. Oh Christmas tree well if you attach the hand to the ankles then bring his feet over so he is resting on his shoulders. Spread the ankles wide that sort of give a shape of a tree. Clamps with bells can be attached to his testicles down around his ankles then to his nipples. You can sting garland hang ornaments and of course the star has to go on or in his ass to be the highest.
4. Chestnuts roasting well this one are easy hot towels then a good close shave followed by putting the testicles in a bucket of snow. They should shrivel up and have a similar look as roast chestnuts. Now for the hot part lovely hot wax dripped on. Festive coloured candles would be nice to use.
5. Stuffing the turkey always a fun thing not hard to do just see how much of what you like can be inserted and held. Grapes nuts carrots Potatoes the choice is yours just grab the penis and testicles and with a little oil insert the desired ingredients. A nice surprise for the dear little slave includes some ginger root with the mix Tape the cheeks together and watch the fun. There will be a lot of gobbling and prancing around I am sure. Do not forget to baste or oil well another variation is to grease every thing including his hands after applying the tape and then tell him he can empty as soon as he can get the tape off that could be good for hours of entertainment depending on the tape job and the amount of oil.
6. Hark the slave does song attach the testicles to the ankles in a squatting position and apply a heat rob of sort to his testicles and in his anus and see how much of a soprano he is give him a Carol to sing when it is over then let his balls go if he does not sound in key well do it over and over till he gets it right.
7. Joy to the world my ass is red. Well simply said a paddling for twelve minutes Oh just to make sure it gets red make sure the ass is nice and cold a nice bucket of snow is always a good thing.
8. And now we don our gay apparel well pretty obvious well take any slave. Get red, white, green stay up stocking matching panties and bra with a some thing pretty for his neck get a skirt that covers but not that well and a slut top for him shoes would be wonderful the higher the heel the better causes them to walk slowly. You can put on make up and a wig just make sure that noon could mistake him for anything then a man in women’s clothing. Then toss him in the car and take him for a ride. Try to find a quiet corner store of gas station and have him pump the gas or go in and buy some thing that he has to ask for. Hopefully a woman is working and you have scope out some thing that is hidden away. If the woman is bored she just might make a few suggestions for you as what to do with him. This should bring about Christmas colour quiet quickly and put everyone in the spirit of giving.
9. Ding dong it is not so long. The pulling and stretching of the testicles and penis. Every Dominant in the room is given the chance to stretch and pull the slaves penis and balls a total of five minutes each before and in-between the anatomy is cooled down in snow when each Dom is finished the slave is measured what ever the larges measure that Dom wins a tongue bath of any part of their body. Should there be any accidents on the part of the slave well he must lick it up and continue if there are too many accidents add a bit of Tabasco sauce with is dripping that should put the fire in him to play properly at Christmas.
10. We three dominants, just those three dominants with strap-ons dildos or their own equipment and a slave with two orifices well guess that means a male slave. Play the carol we three Kings and when a new king starts to sing switch positions of the Dominants. Play the carol three times. Who win s the dominants silly the one not in the slaves ass or mouth when the carol stops decides if they should play the carol three more times depending on how my dominants have not yet cum
11. OH little dicks this is easy of all the male slave the one with the shortest dick is spanked twenty five times on his ass and then 24 on his dick with a six inch plastic ruler by all in the room and this is the time when a small number of is a good thing guests that is not penis size.
12. T’is the time for bondage and follies. The poor slave that has had to endure these past 11 tortures should get a rest and a break but hell that is a slaves lot in life tied the poor boy up in your favourite position and then reflect on how much you like to give and he likes to receive so have fun. HO HO HO
Monday, October 27, 2008
time for a change
Time for a new style I believe www.darklightstables.blogspot.com
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Tuesday, September 09, 2008
A strange thing we humans are. To hear hundred people were killed in a wave or 80 killed in a hurricane seems not to affect us as one shot on a freeway. We stop traffic have vigils leave flowers for the one. The hundred we bury quickly . We grieve over children shot in a school yet ten times the same number die from starvation in the world every day do we build flower shrines where they fell?
I do not feel much difference, as some do , in the hundred or the one as I do not know them. I have not seen them grow as children ,no conversations has gone one over the years between myself and them. I hold nothing in common with them except that we exist on the same planet, we are made of the same stuff.
They are of little consequence to me as they do not share my views hopes and desires they had their own based on their lives and experiences. It would be like saying that I care if they were life-stylers or vanillas . Is it simply because I do not know them that cause my lack of human feeling for them. Why must so must news and stories revolve on the one and not the hundred. Would I care anymore if it did I doubt it.
I feel empathy at most when I see a single child ravaged by a storm , war or poverty yet if I see 300 bodies floating in the ocean no sadness wells up inside of me .
If I am so cold towards my own species then why do I feel inadequate in my help when I cannot stop a dove crying out in pain?
I do not feel much difference, as some do , in the hundred or the one as I do not know them. I have not seen them grow as children ,no conversations has gone one over the years between myself and them. I hold nothing in common with them except that we exist on the same planet, we are made of the same stuff.
They are of little consequence to me as they do not share my views hopes and desires they had their own based on their lives and experiences. It would be like saying that I care if they were life-stylers or vanillas . Is it simply because I do not know them that cause my lack of human feeling for them. Why must so must news and stories revolve on the one and not the hundred. Would I care anymore if it did I doubt it.
I feel empathy at most when I see a single child ravaged by a storm , war or poverty yet if I see 300 bodies floating in the ocean no sadness wells up inside of me .
If I am so cold towards my own species then why do I feel inadequate in my help when I cannot stop a dove crying out in pain?
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
First time
First time for any slave is fraught with emotions.
Can you imagine standing naked in front of an almost stranger as he peruses your body. Not from a far but so close his breath feels like wind. All your imperfections proudly displayed for him to mock. All those hours at the gym that you never showed up for. Hoping upon hope that the sweat you feel does not form a droplet and force itself to run freely down your ribs. Trembling to hold back the moistness that is forming on your genitalia. As his fingers probe and he finds that wetness you can feel his smile and you embarrassment grow. The words no no not there run in you mind as he parts your cheeks to fond the rosebud. Can you relax enough for him to enter oh god have I clean well enough comes the thoughts rushing from thought to thought . His finger pushing through the rosebud gaining access to that area hidden by your ass hidden because it was not to be shared and now it is his.
Pinching and pulling on your nipples and genitalia he leaves that finger in the darkest of regions moving it in and out slowly while torturing the rest of you body with his touches. Pulling out quickly , you clench to make sure nothing follows his finger out slapping on cuffs he raises you arms and then all touch is lost . You feel the coolness and it is all still but for the quivering of your arms. searching with your eyes only restricted by that command he gave to you in the beginning head and eyes for wad. I leave then to have time to feel and take in what has happened . I give them time to realize they cannot go any where with out me right now . I give them time to think I can anything I want to . I give them time to enjoy fear. Fear that their fantasies just might come true.
Then they start to sweat!
Can you imagine standing naked in front of an almost stranger as he peruses your body. Not from a far but so close his breath feels like wind. All your imperfections proudly displayed for him to mock. All those hours at the gym that you never showed up for. Hoping upon hope that the sweat you feel does not form a droplet and force itself to run freely down your ribs. Trembling to hold back the moistness that is forming on your genitalia. As his fingers probe and he finds that wetness you can feel his smile and you embarrassment grow. The words no no not there run in you mind as he parts your cheeks to fond the rosebud. Can you relax enough for him to enter oh god have I clean well enough comes the thoughts rushing from thought to thought . His finger pushing through the rosebud gaining access to that area hidden by your ass hidden because it was not to be shared and now it is his.
Pinching and pulling on your nipples and genitalia he leaves that finger in the darkest of regions moving it in and out slowly while torturing the rest of you body with his touches. Pulling out quickly , you clench to make sure nothing follows his finger out slapping on cuffs he raises you arms and then all touch is lost . You feel the coolness and it is all still but for the quivering of your arms. searching with your eyes only restricted by that command he gave to you in the beginning head and eyes for wad. I leave then to have time to feel and take in what has happened . I give them time to realize they cannot go any where with out me right now . I give them time to think I can anything I want to . I give them time to enjoy fear. Fear that their fantasies just might come true.
Then they start to sweat!
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Fear
A nasty little word that cause so much to happen in the body and mind of a slave. Fear is mostly an ugly word no one wants to have fear. You fear the touch a sharp knife you might get cut does he know what he is doing ? Can you trust him , why did you trust him?. You fear everyday things like being late , not looking great , falling down you might get mauled by a bear. Fear is an excellent guideline fear can keep you from danger ,injury and all sorts of mayhem. It can also cause danger to appear around every corner!
The old saying a place fools rush in where angels fear to
tread. Stands out right now is it saying that angels that are pretty powerful fear that there is something with greater more power or is the fool with too much power and does not use common sense.
Most fantasies in the lifestyle have to do with fear.
Kidnapping , imprisonment. rape yet they are in our dreams. Being bound to a cross and waiting for the first stoke to land is that fear or anticipation. Do we fear what we want and let others force it upon us so that we feel someone is saying it is okay it wasn't in our control.
I know that when fear is present the session is electrified. each touch magnified. The dread of what will be has moved from from reality and much closer to that fantasy. Fear causes women to moisten and men to drip far easier. their senses are heighten and their reflexes jerky.
Fear , just the right dose goes hand and hand with enjoyment in my opinion.
The old saying a place fools rush in where angels fear to
tread. Stands out right now is it saying that angels that are pretty powerful fear that there is something with greater more power or is the fool with too much power and does not use common sense.Most fantasies in the lifestyle have to do with fear.
Kidnapping , imprisonment. rape yet they are in our dreams. Being bound to a cross and waiting for the first stoke to land is that fear or anticipation. Do we fear what we want and let others force it upon us so that we feel someone is saying it is okay it wasn't in our control.I know that when fear is present the session is electrified. each touch magnified. The dread of what will be has moved from from reality and much closer to that fantasy. Fear causes women to moisten and men to drip far easier. their senses are heighten and their reflexes jerky.
Fear , just the right dose goes hand and hand with enjoyment in my opinion.
Friday, August 15, 2008
Ritual in My lifestyle
I feel that without some degree of ritual then it is not a lifestyle. Lifestyle means just that a style that sets you apart so for me it is protocols and ritual.
My schedule that all my slaves follow is they have a day for a session but also have a defined punishment day. They have a dress code for when they are with me , when they are at home and when they go to work.
They have a schedule for exercising the body as I believe that slaves should be in the best shape they can be. This does not mean all are 5.2 feet weight 118 and 1/2 pounds it means that with me they must care for their bodies as they have given me ownership and I do not own crap. Just because you are 5 foot and weight 250 pound or 6 foot and weight 180 my slaves all exercised.
All my slaves must have intelligence and they must seek to improve this at all times so there is library time entrench in their schedules. There is a time where every week where they can discuss any areas that they are not comfortable with and have time each day for themselves. Daily tasks are incorporated with tasks that I want done.
Slaves are ritually punished . They are told of the transgression , they have to explain why they did what they did not do. They are also punished for poor thinking. Yes I punish even when things turn out good why because they have to understand there are consequences for all decision including not making a decision. Such as If my slave stops to help some one and makes her self late to see me she will get a stroke if she bypasses the person and gets to me on time she gets 10 strokes.
slaves attending an event with me must touch my elbow with two of their fingers to ask me anything . They have greeting positions , punishment positions the list goes on . So why do I do all of this for the pure pleasure of control. I am consistent in then so my slave knows what I want and has guide lines to keep her happy when I am not there. are they some what silly perhaps but it makes life mush easier when all know the rules and that they are consistently enforced
My schedule that all my slaves follow is they have a day for a session but also have a defined punishment day. They have a dress code for when they are with me , when they are at home and when they go to work.
They have a schedule for exercising the body as I believe that slaves should be in the best shape they can be. This does not mean all are 5.2 feet weight 118 and 1/2 pounds it means that with me they must care for their bodies as they have given me ownership and I do not own crap. Just because you are 5 foot and weight 250 pound or 6 foot and weight 180 my slaves all exercised.
All my slaves must have intelligence and they must seek to improve this at all times so there is library time entrench in their schedules. There is a time where every week where they can discuss any areas that they are not comfortable with and have time each day for themselves. Daily tasks are incorporated with tasks that I want done.
Slaves are ritually punished . They are told of the transgression , they have to explain why they did what they did not do. They are also punished for poor thinking. Yes I punish even when things turn out good why because they have to understand there are consequences for all decision including not making a decision. Such as If my slave stops to help some one and makes her self late to see me she will get a stroke if she bypasses the person and gets to me on time she gets 10 strokes.
slaves attending an event with me must touch my elbow with two of their fingers to ask me anything . They have greeting positions , punishment positions the list goes on . So why do I do all of this for the pure pleasure of control. I am consistent in then so my slave knows what I want and has guide lines to keep her happy when I am not there. are they some what silly perhaps but it makes life mush easier when all know the rules and that they are consistently enforced
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