Wednesday, May 31, 2006

5 down six to come

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"If you think on the fear you react to the fear not the tiger." How are those ideas different?

Ans: You would react to what you fear as the first bite of the tiger if that is what you fear the most and not the paw swipe that is comming at you

What about the idea of fight or flight?

Ams: both have value the must be used at the right time.

"Fear did not give you a chance of surival it was luck so you got away with it" You believe in luck?
Ans:

luck , chance are always a part of any conflict, struggle and relations So I do beleive that through proper traing in anything there is a better chance but a good percentage with everything has to so with the right place at the right time.

Do You believe in second chances?
Ans: that depends on what? A relations yes there sre so many reasons why relations can sour and not all are the fault of the individuals. On honour and honesty I have a hard time giving trust once it has been rejected. Not being honourable or being dis-honest with me is the best way to loose trust from me, it will take a long time and a lot of groveling before I would think of trusting again

"Patience ling you must learn patience." Is patience really a virtue?

Ans: Timming is a virtue, patience is part of timing so it is part of a virtue

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

4 of 6 my pet only 4


"Now if you are suddenly jumped by a tiger do you think you will have time to think how horrible this will be or will you just do your best to surve the attack." Yes, but if you thought about the fear then you could prepare yourself for an attack like that. Without prior thought do You believe Your odds are better to survive or worse?

Ans: If you think on the fear you react to the fear not the tiger. If you allow your instincts to take over then your chances are better . Knowlege on how a tiger kills would help you more thatn the fear.

Is there a difference for You between a fear You know You have to face and one that surprises You? The one that isn't a surprise, don't You think thinking about it will helpreparere You?

Ans There can be not all is known to everyone we still have to face it when we are surprised by it though I feel our instincts handle it quiker .

Ans: Fear must be understood to conquer it no the reason must be. Eliminate the reason for fear which in many cases is a need to worry almost and most fears will dissapaite.

"believe that because of fear most people do not take the right actions to confront what gives them fear. So people make the wrong decisions sometimes they get away with it." Can You explain what You mean by "get away with it?"

Ans: In fear when the tiger junps at you and you go into a fetal position. The force of the tiger knocks you down a hill into river and you float away to safety. It ewas fear that put you into the position that same reaction on flat land would have had different results. Fear did not give you a chance of surival it was luck so you got away with it


Do You believe in war at all? Why?

Ans: I am sorry but I have counted and answered three questions. You have ask six questions three over the limit. I will not allow them in your questions of 4 since they cannot be based on the answers that I have provided today. Patience ling you must learn patience. Best hold onto those questions, perhaps after I get thos pictures on time I might just allow them to be asked privately but until them I must refrain.

Monday, May 29, 2006

A comment

Anonymous said...On lings blog

How does it make you feel to know your Master kneels before another in complete submission. If they own him do they also own you?


Well everyone is own by some one or something. I base my lifestyle on a feudal system so it is simple I am served and I serve. ling is only owned by me no one else. I have never knelt in complete submission and I have never been owned never collared. I would have to say that the individual might be drawing on their personal experience or has limited knowledge of what a switch is or does I would prefer to understand their concepts more to understand why such a question, though it does intrigue me. Why anonymous why is there no name if they are asking a question do they expect an answer to be given to no-name. The language of the questions makes it sound as if submission is a bad thing something to be looked down on. Sadly anonymous I do not agree with that idea yes I think it is a gift whether aI receive or give it. Drop me a line should you wish to discuss it further it sounds like an interesting topic I love to talk about switching.

Friday, May 26, 2006

And now there be three

Fear is defined as: A feeling of agitation and anxiety caused by the presence or imminence of danger. A state or condition marked by this feeling.
Worry is defined as: To feel uneasy or concerned about something; be troubled.

You use fear and worry interchangeably..Don't You think You can fear something without worrying about it?

Some thing may scare me at the point when I confront it but to me fear is something that lingers on something a person thinks about circumstance. If you think about being eaten alive by a tiger you can generate some pretty horific images. How teeth tear through the flesh and scrae along the bone the feeling of the squirting of blood as a major artery is severed the smeel of the contents of your stomach as your intestines are ripped from your body. Now if you are suddenly jumped by a tiger do you think you will have time to think how horrible this will be or will you just do your best to surve the attack. So no if you fear you will worry.

You stated, "If it does come the worrying about what it can do to you might well be the reason you do not conquer your fear and move on." I suppose there are cases where this statement might be true, but don't You think fear can also push us to conquer something? Do You think most people succumb to their fears?

Fear makes us lash out it makes us react sometimes too quickly so no I do not beleive that fear is a help in conquering. I beleive that because of fear most people do not take the right actions to confront what gives them fear. So people make the wrong decisions sometimes they get away with it. Most of the time they are fodder for the tiger.

You stated, "If I were to fear something globally it would be politicians who with no true training in dealing on a world theather make decision based on their feelings rather than what is best. Examples of failed politicians would be any who caused a war to start through agression." How do You feel about the war in Iraq?

I beleive that many a man, woman and child will not be able to contribute to the world because of two unhonourable men wanting to win a pissing contest. Lives should not be wasted in such a fashion. As for the reasons for this war they were not justified it is not that Husien attacked. It has killed the budget for the USA for years to come and left a whole where some control was before and made mothers cry. It might not have been perfect but it was better than what is now. Worse of all it has produced a deep seeded hatred that will not disapate for decades. In the lifestyle the big stick works in the world too many say that they have a big stick to make stong arm politics workable. SO how do I feel about the war very sad indeed not much of a butterfly is it.

Two questions from ling

1) You stated, "A lack of knowledge of what is to come, is one meaning. All fear this as it does for some produce anxious feelings." All fear this except for You? Why is that?

Perhaps a better statement is that I do not worry about it. Imight be scared when it comes but I will not think of it until it is here. What is the sense of worring , if it never arrives then all that pain you caused yourself is worth nothing. If it does come then worring about what it can do to you might well be the reason you do not conquer your fear and move on.


2) You stated, "Globally I cannot fear anything until it is brought down to a personal level." How personal does it need to get?
Something like war isnĂ‚’t personal persay, but it does affect You. What about disease or environmental issues? Again not really personalĂ‚….would it take one of Your family being affected by it for You to fear it?

I do not fear wars or disease they are only the consequence of others actions . If I were to fear something globally it would be politicians who with no true training in dealing on a world theather make decision based on their feelings rather than what is best. Examples of failed politicians would be any who caused a war to start through agression.

If war was brought to my door then I would fight to survive as most would I think. If I fear the outcome of that struggle then would I have not lost already. As for disease well you know that I have had many things happen to me that is part of life so from a unique vision of experience. I would have to say that disease is an outcome of life it happens if I were to take time away from my health to worry about what could happen I would be wasting my time on this planet and that could be a fear of mine, wasting time.

So how personel does it have to be well for war I would not go off to another land to fight an aggressinve action but would defend my land. As for disease it is not something I fear.

Enviromental issues , In the first answer I talked about change and how it can be affected byt the butterfly. Things happen we can try to do what we thinkis right but we do not know if it is or not. Should we worry and fear that we have made the wrong decisions or should we like the butterfly do what comes naturally to us. SO I might not like weather but I do not fear it nor change that I also might not like.

Thursday, May 25, 2006

Ah the challenge

What are Your greatest fears? (related to You personally and the world)

The first question from ling. Fear is a word which usually will cause discomfort. So what are fears would be the first part of the question. A lack of knowledge of what is to come, is one meaning. All fear this as it does for some produce anxious feelings. So what causes uneasy feeling in me ? Certainly not what is inevitable. If I can not do anything about it they how can I fear what will be? The fear of not being able to stop pain specifically to my family that was caused by a failure of mine.

A glorious end for me would be to fight a polar bear with sword and shield knowing that I will loose is not a problem seeing how long I could last would be of great honour to me. I would when my time is more defined on this world activly seek out a Polar bear.. In the same situation should I seek out this bear knowingly putting my family at risk this is my fear.

Fear for the world? I do not fear for the world it progresses as to each flap of the butterflies' wing how can I fear a butterfly? The world has many things wrong with and many things that are great. That is the two sides of balance no matter what you call them they must exist and balance themselves. SO must old and new. I do not fear change even if it means destruction of what we know as life as something will replace it. Globally I cannot fear anything until it is brought down to a personal level. One of the bad things of the world is that there is no perfection in anything , a great thing is that nature continually tries to find it.

My greatest hope for the world is that butterflies will always be able to effect a change.

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

My My My a ranting princess

Well I have read it on alt there is a blog. I have read it once in a while but not a favorite of mine. Well she is ranting about Dommes not allowed to get angry or be bitchy. She wants to be able to through a temper tantrum but sill hold the respect of her subs and others. Hmmm childish a bit maybe, too emotional oh yah. To me it sounds like she should be a switch and at this moment, but in my mind that would be insulting to switches subs and yes to Dommes,. Should be treated like a brat throwing a tantrum.

With all the whining and complaining it sounds as if she needs a reason to cry and complain. A good old ass warming until she has reason . As for her subs who have written how much they agree with her makes me wonder if this relation is not all cyber or are they brain dead. But all and all she is right about one thing she does sound like a princess does she not?

If a Dominant is not in control of the themselves how can they control any one or thing would be the question I have for her. I realize that the question would just cause her to whine and complain some more so I will ask this . If she thinks that Alt is run by submissives telling their Dominants what to do why does the princess not find another castle to play in? Perhaps a fantasy one where everything is jussst perrrrfect for little girls

Thursday, May 18, 2006

And now the News( a Rant )

So in Montreal it seems the lifestyle was on radio in the past couple of days. A talk show hosted by a professional A Dr Pelltier. Part of the community is so happy they think that we are on our way to acceptance. Like the 70 s when gay was a news item the lifestyle is becoming the news of the day. It is in TV shows or alluded to in dialogue on the radio. Will it be well I believe in Santa but there are some gifts he cannot provide.

It would be lovely we could have out own village and there it would be permissible to have slaves in skimpy clothes. We would all wear leather and that other material. A constant call "slave or sub" would ring out. Slaves hanging from balconies and subs tied to lamp posts so that the vanillas could drive through and point with their mouths open aghast as to what is going on. I can see religious folk taken children to see so they know what happens it they touch them selves. All would be happy would they not .

Is it going to happen don' t think so. We might not be raided as often, more might come out but we are still the monsters of perversions and deviant to the core. We spawn the serial killers and repast it could not be the repress emotions that have always been in the vanilla society. As long as it stays mostly in the closet the vanillas will accept our existence but once . They will bring the lifestyle out to increase TV show ratings or radio programs but I doubt I will see it in the streets in my lifetime.

These views are the views of a dark deviant being and not of this station please send all comment to the attention of Cloud care of the Darklight stable we now return to our regular programming.

Oops sorry I forgot this was supposed to be a rant on family and things oh well next same time same channel

Plans A rant


I have a friend that is a Dom he says he does not like to plan a session in case it does not go the way it should . I can understand that to a point he must plan something in his head he has some idea of what he will do just does not want to give out the specifics.

I like some plans I like to know I have the car so I can make plan to see people , go shopping all that sort of thing. My wife(a Vanilla) does not know the meaning of plans. Anything involving her family is not planned until the last second just in case . They seem to want to thwart anyone's plans so tthat they are the center of the uninverse and when you get a day to have sanity reign then all of a sudden they want o plan out your day.

These people have family worked into a deity. Needless to say now I am pissed off. So I gave her the car today and when she said you can drive me in after lunch with my mother and then drive our son I said no. You want the car it is yours you want your son driven to work drive him. I would love to take a family that I know and bend them over a couch. Then administer my plan. Oh well I will be off soon and this teaches me a valuable lesson advice for anyone in the lifestyle do not marry vanilla unless you want countless headaches. Wait and find one of your own much better that way I probably would not have had a heart attack. I might even smile more often.

The rant is over you can make plans for the rest of the day now I am. Oh by the way the next rant will be on family and deities

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Vanilla emergency

ling has had an emergency and had to fly off to deal with it. The challenge will be put on hold until she is able to return. I know her strength will allow her to cope with her vanilla world as it does with the tasks I put before her. I expect her to take the time she needs and follows the trilogy.

With that I will say I know you are strong ling I have faith in you .

Monday, May 15, 2006

Questions and challenges for a sub

I have always said to you that I would answer any questio honestly but i will not freely offer it to you. you have the olny means at hand for you to know of me and how I think is that not the way to understanding emotions or non emotions. Does it not give you opportunity to understand my emotions for you.

When you ask a question it should develop 10 other questions . Formulate your questions well and we might well have a discussion going. Some of your questions were excellent but they stopped dead in their tracks.
So now I will give you a task in front of all that read here, blog about what you know of me. then formulate one question for me on your blog.I will answer it on mine and then you must ask 2 questions on the answers that I give you. The following day it will be three questions then four. When you reach 10 then you start with a new question and we repeat the process. SO I offer a challenge to you ling. Can you complete this task? Do you really wish to know me?

If yo think I will make it difficult for you yes I will but you have the readers to comment and say if I have not answered your question and I can think of 2 (Sir and littleone) that will most defintely call me on any untruths or that I did not answer the question.

Do you accept the challenge?

A listening aid for ling

A major stumbling block for ling has been that she needs to know more about me. I understand that and that some sub's need to have an emotional bond with their Doms or Masters. So months ago I told ling to ask questions of me and I would answer. One question a day (it used to be 2) to let her explore and find out what she deemed .Important.

I have answered the questions with honesty and speed . I feel slighted though. As ling seems to ask the question but not dwell on the answer. At least that is what I think , my reason for this is simple. I have noticed that I am getting the same questions as I did months ago and even the same wording . So is my sub actually taking an interested part in these questions or is she blowing away a task because she has little interest in it. I have in the past re-answered the question thinking that she just forgot the answer and I would mention that it was the same question as before. So to help with your concentration miss ling by tomorrow you will look through all your emails which surely you have kept for reference from Me. you will look for the answer to the last question that I have to yet answered and you will blog about it.

The procedure you will take to find it is to insert your intruder wait 30 minutes then begin to look for the answer in your old emails from Me . you may take the intruder out after you have blogged about the answer. Should you not find the answer because you deleted it then you are to blog about why you are asking the question if the information of such little use to you. The faster you answer the easier the punishment!. And no the intruder is not the punishment it is an aid for your memory.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Preaching

I was on a discussion group when a post was made. It professed that the lifestyle was better than the vanilla one for battered women because we had rules and discussed things before hand. Some how I do not think the author of this post truly understands what battered means. Yes the lifestyle tend to talk and discuss more of what they want but do they touch on anything else. I know that a few of my subs have come from relations that I would have to say were abusive at best. They might have talked a lot before have but once in the control of a monster you are manipulated no matter what was said monsters have a way about them. They take the trust you have given and turn it against you.
The ones that have come from these relations started out as being happy in relations that they thought were healthy. So just to have a reality check we are not perfect we have monsters lurking about as do the vanillas and we must always look our for ourselves .

Monday, May 08, 2006

My MY

Well my little ling seems to want to think a lot does she not. Instead of following what I have asked of her she likes to get rid of tasks she does not like to perform. The first time was a story she did not want to write the second time meditation she did not want to do.

Poor little subbie does not quite understand it is not just the fun of what the sub likes to do. Yes that is fun but all too easy she has to learn that she has to do what she does not like almost better than what she likes. I think ling must learn not to think about what I tell her to do. I have said she can disagree but she will still have to do it what is asked.

Starting in 6 days time ling will have to wear the intruder for 10 minutes each day. ling will also have to meditate for 10 minutes a day. ling has to blog about her meditation with the intruder and in six days will have to blog each day about her meditation and her wearing of the intruder. Each blog must be 100 words or more and must truly reflect her thoughts on both . Do enjoy a new routine ling I am sure you are smiling about this one.

Sunday, May 07, 2006

"sub cause pain to Dom" Headline News


ling, has caused the need for me to meditate or for another word think deeply on things. I shall not provide details on the subject it self , instead it is the reason the following events happened.

I either need to sit quietly in a room and empty my head with silence. Not possible all the time as there is life in the neighborhood that is not under my control and of course the young adults refered to as children in my house. The other way is to do something mundane and repetitive. Well brainstorm I have been given the okay from Doctor that must be obeyed to exercise again. Lightly of course and of course I listened to what the doctor told me to do.

What is lightly to an old warrior, a brisk light row through the north ailantic well as long as there is no storms that could be light don't you think. So off to the long boat I went (my rowing machine that is) so off I went to meditate. At first the rowing was a little soft to meditate with so I increased the rep count per minute. To do that I put on some Gregorian chants with a drum beat in much like the Romans galleys of old and set in for a good row
Well it took 15 minutes and I was out in to the north ailantic with waves smashing into the bow and my fellow Vikings pulling hard, the muscles bulging with the fight against the sea.. I could not let my comrades down by quitting when the bell sounded at the 20 minute mark noooo way. SO onward I pushed knowing what place I should hold as being the last to quit.

Well I finished my rowing fantasy and felt great , nice to see my old Viking friends again and time to think that was great. Friends dropped over after wards and it was then I noticed something when I laugh my stomach hurt. When they left I prepared supper my hands cramped I went up to watch a period of hockey saw the opening puck drop then woke up too see they were in the second minute of the second period and I had missed 7 goals. Then I moved I do not know why I moved I was comfortable there but I moved . My head hurt my back, legs , arms. Toes, stomach , the only two things that did not hurt was my buttocks and my nose. My nipples also were numb they had been since I did weights in the morning oops do not tell morning star.

SO I did a lot of thinking and came to the conclusion that it is lings's fault for giving me pain. I think everyone will agree with me it is not that a 52 year old tried to act as a 29 year old again. After all I lilstened to my doctor I did a light row no storms in the alantic. I did listen for the bell but I though it was just Swen was letting the air pass between his teeth or Igamar had trouble again with his stomach he is getting old now and bear meat just does not sit well with him . Naw it had to be my subs fault couldn't be mine could it (evil smile)

For the next time I intend to do what most vailla men do when they want to think deep thoughts watch a football game in a chair with a beer. Not true but I thought it was funny and sometimes we just need to laugh rather than think

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Protocols

Any one who has been my sub knows that I like protocols , why ? It is simple everyone knows what they must do at what time and where and how. They are and easy tool that a Dom and sub know what should be happening a plan you could say, so that no one is offended if followed. When it is not followed then you can worry about someone are they okay because they have not contacted me at the right time. They also provide the answer to many what if questions when the Dom is not around.

For my protocols I use a very basic idea of politeness and courtesy. Respect must be shown to all Doms as you would show to a parent or one that is older. That I must know what my sub is doing during the day who she is seeing is the same as wanting to know where your child is when they are not at home with you. House rules a little more defined are part of this protocol .

So much easier for all if subs have rules and protocols that I think I will again start using a contract in the future so that the sub knows exactly what is expected of them and what they should expect of me both in the mental and physically sides. I think it only fair.