I hope it is the weather

Age, time or weather what else can the old blame for pain. I think this time I shall choose the weather not cold enough not stormy enough just too damm nice. Laying by the pool taking the sun just too easy of a life. I need to fight against a storm and mother nature for a while to make me whole again. This easy living was interrupted by camp for a short period and I felt great now I have become the sloth that the medical profession says I should be.

My subs have inspired renewed vigor in me they challenge me in a good way I must remember the training of newbies is quite different from an experience one they both have bright intelligent minds and are or were a bit misguided but both are showing nicely. I was going to take a sabbatical from the lifestyle for a couple of months for I felt I was no longer had interest in the pursuit of it nor did I hold the attention of anyone, dear friends of Sir and littleone the exception. I still find some in the lifestyle to be children but the duo of pup and ling have rekindled an interest yes Sir you will see them soon hopefully, in all their spender good things are to wait for, you know even the Grinch has to wait to hate Christmas. littleone looks as if I will be delving into my toy box soon. Am I back well I am not Sedaka but I have not retired yet.

CLoud

Time an old enemy

Today was a vanilla day as was last night. My daughter and wife did the street sale on St Laurent Street which means 5 minutes of shopping and 2 hours of eating and discussion. Today I did the sale again this time with my wife and mother in law in tow. I mainly went for the swords and knives I had seen the night before. Upon close examination they proved a disappointment they were show pieces and would fall apart if they were used.
The day pasted quickly before I realized it was 5 pm. A Domme friend of mine had asked me to go to Le chateaux with her I thought this was an excellent time to see how well pup had learned the rules. This was not to be I was too tired and pup did not have a lift home I do not allow my ladies to go out with out a secured transport back. I know pup might have been upset but it was for the better. Another time pup and I am sure the treat I offered to you might give you a little more release. Though I do miss not seeing my old friend and pup I needed to rest.

Unfortunately I no longer have the ability to get around as easily as I used to so a lot of long distant training will have to do for both ling and pup. I see more positive statements from both of them and I am pleased to an extent. I will be happier when I have both of them on a good exercise schedule and eating right I know the next week will be hard for pup with school starting and all the fun that will cause and ling has had a hectic weekend but it is now that rules and routines must be established before they overwhelm themselves and start to slip so ladies it might be a harder week ahead than they think. Tomorrow I am off to the old port and back in time to the 18 century of old Montreal. Next weekend I am off to Michigan for family affairs then back here for so peace and quiet and training for the ladies so little time so much to do. Companion or enemy, time is there to befuddle plans and put stress in our lives is it not, what other reason would we record it with such diligence .

CLoud

Needles and pins

Today was boring I went off to the hospital for tests and laughed at some of the people taking the blood and performing the tests. They showed genuine concern that they were hurting me. They poked with small needles and electrodes. I have just seen several workshops at camp on how to cause discomfort shall we say and they think they caused some pain. Well that was good for a laugh something did put me on pins and needles today my subs asked me how they are to ask about my health and I felt compelled to give them information that I do not usually share so easily. It was not much but more than usual strange a time of weakness? Not usual for me at all must have been the long day at the hospital both are coming along at their own pace this weekend though I think I should have all their hard limits so we can advance in the training a bit. The next few weeks should be interesting.

CLoud

Last days of summer

My friend is sad with the last days so evidently here. I understand it but I am not that sad yes I hate the memories of going back to school but autumn is a time of peace for me now. A time when things must be put away for next year, gardens put to sleep and hopefully they will wake again. Old things trotted out like Halloween decorations and corn pots for roasting. Walks in the forest with it summer foliage creating a crunch as we step. It is a time to put things to sleep for a while but keep the memories for sitting in front of the fireplace with friends on chilly days. Every day creates new memories for me to hold, were we to stay in one time that is all what we would have over and over again. No for me I had a good summer but time to close the pool and make ready for the snow falls of winter you must find enjoyment in what you have.

I am sure with the 2 new subs I will be kept busy this winter and enjoying it.


HO HO Ho opps did I say that one must be carefull not to wake the Grinch up too early.

CLoud

Garage sales

Why is it that you have a garage sale and the house seems to be in more of a mess then before? I seem to have collect more merchandise for the next garage sale then gotten rid of. Now I will have to clean up my garage before I get back to work on my projects. Sir and littleone came over during the sale littleone did well selling off her tent and some stuff to me. Sir proved that a lounge chair can be a formidable advisary thought he did win the day over it at time it was an epic struggle. If making money at these things is important I would not have done it but having a good laugh with friends is then I did well yesterday.

Are we ever totally honest

I always state it as almost as a threat but can anyone be totally honest? I know that I do not allow anyone very close to me. I do believe that knowledge is one of the greatest treasures in the world . Like the splitting of the atom it is also the greatest weapon in the world. A future trainee offer a truth about her appearance it must have been extremely hard sending the email and waiting for a reply must have been horrible as she mentioned that she would understand if that type was not for me. Very brave of her to do so. Size is not important as much as how you feel about yourself.

pup is also doing great not one no or but she does what she has been told I am pleased and look forward to displaying her for my friends yes pup you can blush and squirm but it will happen so keep up the stretching my pet. Oh pup you will love this news I found my old hunting knife I intend to get it all fixed up for you I know that this news will make you gush a bit it okay you are allowed to this time. pup enjoys knife play.

Now for a truth from me. I will never offer information about myself but I answer all questions honestly. Now time to get on with the real life of bdsm! Yes littleone that was for you there will always be something in the shadow it is my nature after all I am from a clan called Darklight we tend to keep lots of things inside for the protection of others and our selves that is why I so admire those that offer me trust..

What makes you

What makes a person finally trust or step over the edge and go for it. I had a little experience with a young pup that had not been able to make up her mind as to whether she wanted training for months all of a sudden last night was it she performed well as instructed and I have left her with the question as to whether we continue the training or not. Why last night what was so right? Could have been because she was horny or did she finally just need to be told what to do? Hard to understand at what point a decision is made is it not?

Bruce Lee

I was watching a movie tonight and realized something. I had coffee with an old friend and the discussion fell into that my expectations of people are too high or really that I do not give them much of a chance. Which to me means that I accept people for what they say they are I do not ask for proof other than them being able to perform up to the level that they say they can. If my only contact with Bruce Lee was his movies would I be able to accept him as a true master of his arts? In the movies his kicks were to the head not a place aimed for by those into the martial arts. In his book it was a different thing his movies only showed he had the speed to do what he said in the book so I do not need to fight Bruce Lee to know that I would not last long. His movies have shown me that he has the skill that he wrote about he just altered it for the masses and to sell films.

I believe that all you have to judge a person at first is their words and so honesty is very important to me honesty with me and with themselves. So yes morningstar I do judge quickly when people do not live up to their bravado and I do not give them much slack. Then again people who show themselves by deeds and actions I hold close and will fight to keep them as friends. So yes I do discard quickly, and it might mean that I will not find all that I look for but I have found friends in you and your Sir far more important to me than those who do not live up to their own expectations.

Now as far as time off from the lifestyle yes I will relax my efforts however I do have a new friend and we will see how that evolves. As for not having coffee with you, pish posh that I would not give up nor would I stop communicating with your Sir just means I will listen to the birds a little longer not a secret garden but maybe quiet place where dreams are easier to realize or maybe the dreams are less complicated.

I seem void of thought

I do not know if it is the time of year or the heat but I am void of thought. The days are becoming long and filled with nothing. I am truly wanting for camp to stimulate me in one way or another. The workshops look interesting and the friendship of kindred souls is in need. I feel that in importance it would have to be that I look forward to the end of camp. All my commitments will have been honoured for this year and I will take time to relax and watch life and think for a while. Important for me to do so review the year and see what I have done not to judge good or bad but to see if I have had effect on others. I have always believed that it is important to do so, to change a life a bit. It means that you were here and did not sit back. The only way to live on is in the memories of others is it not?

The one who is young to this life and has sort of asked for help from me will be my only concern after camp. I do like trying new things and a long distant lifestyle could be interesting on how to overcome barriers and give proper training, at the very least we will have fun discussions for we share the same type of vanilla reality and bdsm desires.
As for my old friends I will still be here writing maybe not quite as active in person but probably in thought.

A decision

A new found friend is in a similar position that I was in many years ago. She had some experience in the lifestyle but put it away to be normal and have a marriage and family. The dark desires will sit for a while but they will surface at sometime. They have awoken in her and now is the time she might be able to put them back to sleep for awhile longer or release then and find her self.. I have seen two questions from her that troubled me in the past. Will this change me if I seek my desires and will I be able to keep my vanilla relationships if I go further.

The first question for me has to answered yes it will change you but not for the necessarily for the worse. It releases tension from your repression of desire it allows some calm to develop in your search for your self. Drawbacks are new tension because you do not find what you need because of time restraints or restraints put on you by your vanilla relationships. Worse if you find the perfect mate but you do not fit their needs. Then there is the tug of reality and other relationships.

Keeping other vanilla relationships depend on you and your mate what both are willing to accept. I have what I call a dove for a wife she has no interest in the lifestyle and cringes when some friends are over and something is mentioned about the lifestyle. That said I cringe when I hear her family is preparing a party. The good thing is that we give each other the time needed for our needs and desires and we are together for those things we like to share. So really it is up to each situation there is no key or way that is set in stone to have your cake and eat it to you have to find it through experience and with the help of friends. I have a few very good ones and that is all I can offer to my new friend , friendship above all else.

So if you were naked

SO if you stood naked to the world and could only cover one area what would it be what would you hide from public view. What do we covet as extra personal or what would you show off what are you most pleased with. Inner thoughts would you hide them and expose the rest of you to scrutiny.

Would a sub prefer to be beaten in front of others instead of being reprimanded? Would a sub do anything before being tied down and taken inn front of others? Does the sub feel that masturbation in front of others that consent to be degrading? If a sub had to stand in a room in the middle of the floor and be caressed and touched would she?. Funny all that a sub is willing to do there is always something that can crush and destroy all the training one thing that the sub might do but the disgust will linger and ferment until her spirit has been destroyed or the relation has ended. As a Dom there has always been one that is honesty for me. Without it I cannot be nor can the sub be . I covet those that offer honesty before all else . If I ask a question it is okay to say I cannot answer that at this moment rather than tell me what you think I want to hear. Out of all offences this one I give only 1 error in judgment to my future and owned subs. I think that is fair for I give only honestly, it is the bases for honour.