needed

It is the one feeling that will always perk me up. Someone saying I need you. As a parent I had to decipher long stories from my kids that realy meant they needed me for one thing or another,that always brought warmth to me. It inspire me to make danger rooms, volcanos and to hug. Those days have sort of gone by the wayside now I still get hey Dad can you or how do you do this but it is not the same. I am no long all knowing to them as I once was That warmth has not been felt in a while.

My health has cause a great down turn of late in what I think I can do . to a point I have become negative to change or just trying things that I once did with out thinking about. My friend have and will always be there for me but thy do not have the need of me they will continue with or with out me.

ling is on a sabatilcal again and I feel has gotten to the point where her needs are changing also . she needs a Dom that can give her the physical side of control. her training that I can do is almost complete.

About ready to clean out the toys and find them homes to place the rocking chair on the porch . Where I could sit and mindlessly rehash the past and what i had done in my life with anyone foolish enough to ask how ae you to day. Perhaps one last battle with the grim reaper sword against sicle , or my favor to slap a polar bear o the nose.

I was told yes terday I need you by a sub, not hey want have some fun, kinky sex slam bam thank who ever that masked stranger was. No a genuine I need you specificely me from a submissive that feels only I can fill her needs . Only I does she trust with her foray into the lifestyle. Damm feels good to be needed again yes I feel a lot of warmth today. It is for one session , might be two but that is not important it is I am needed that has given me energy and drive once again.

Idle hands

As many of the nuns would say to me in my youth idle hands cause minds to get into trouble. A good saying of course not exactly true I was being reprimanded for having my hands up a young woman's skirt so my hands were far from idle.

This has brought back memories of childhood and the games we played , strip poker, chase and strip of course dare.SO much fun but if I go back further what about jacks. That lovely game where you bounced a ball and tried to pick up as many pointy objects as you could. Hmmm an idea I remember reading about a game for subs such as picking up greased marbles between their cheeks and moving it to a bucket several feet away. Of course there is the marble push. On their knees hands tied behind their back and pushing a marble across a floor to specified destination but nothing with jacks.

You would think that jacks lend themselves to the lifestyle, pointy difficult to handle just sounds like a sub game to me. Like ass grab where the sub with out use of thier hands must grab as many as possible from the floor. Or perhaps a rendition of the tooth pick challenge. Now they used to be made of metal if you found those perhaps they could be heated or frozen just so that the sub does not get board. Hmmm what do you think? Oh what should we do with the ball?

First part is almost over

ling is away so she cannot blog . she is almost finished the first part of her punishment . Which was : 10 pussy smacks , masturbate with out cumming at least 3 times a day finishing off with 5 clit smacks. I believe this will have a mortifying effect on ling. More so that she is away and does not have the comfort of her own space. This part o the punishment was to show her that she cannot always have the lifestyle as she desirers. There are rules and they are to be followed even when they do not give her the excitement and thrill.

The second part of the punishment will be to continue the pussy smacks in the morning and the clit smacks at night however the change will be she must cum 5 times inbetween the smacks. This should give ling the understanding that too much of a getting what you want is not a good thing.

Oh what is a pussy smack well first the pussy is shaved every day as close as possible this sometimes produces razor burn but c'est la vie. Then when the pussy is still damp you take a spatula and apply it briskly to the area as rapidly as possible. Afterwards a liberal dose of acohol to dis-infect the area. The clit smack is simple holding her legs open and her pussy lips she must direct the smacks to the clit. I know this is difficult and she will miss. she must hit the clit 5 times misses do not count

I am sure that somethings are becoming quite tender now. Hopefully this will inspire ling to take tasks seriously and certainly to stay in the proper frame of mind

undertanding and communications

Well I am back, a few pounds lighter, a little slower but I am back. Now lets tear into an issue that has presented itself while I was in hospital.

ling a very good sub so far but fell apart during my absence. she fell apart because she was angry with me for well to say it plainly I was not there everyday for her. I found this amusing as I have set tasks for her given her routines to follow and my friends emails to gain reassurance from in case of an unscheduled absence . Yet her tasks were not complete, her routines sort of done and sort of not.

When was it okay for a sub to be angry at her Dom when her duties were not performed? Yes I have been harsh in the past when she has had unscheduled absences because of worry but I was not angry with her. I was upset but when it was explained I accepted it.

So miss ling yes you are in trouble and yes I will take great delight in the punishment that I have assigned you and the best my dear is yet to come. In the future I suggest you use your tasks and routines as replacement for my presenses when need be.

So nice to be back

Witchcraft

In day of olde when you were sick, you sought out a sooth sayer or witch doctor or warlock. Some magical person that could cure you. If you could stomach the potion then you might just fall asleep or you might start vomiting and fall into coma and then into the great unknown. Some survived some did not. If you did well they wanted to make sure you were strong enough so they would bleed you in various ways, leeches, knives and needles.


How nice that now adays medicine has changed so much. Now they introduce antibiotics that burn your veins and any tissue it touches, you slip in and out of a canatonic sleep induced by the use of pain killers so you do not feel the antibiotics . When they can no longer find veins they send you home with pills that causes you to sleep eat get sick and sleep.

They did say That I am without infection now but I am waiting for the leeches.

Not quite ready to lay down yet

I am at home I am not perfect but I am home. Thank you to well wishers and the visitors all were appreciated. Health wise I have a while to go but I also have a strong will. You will not see much of my writing for at least a week or two but I will be reading. Yes there is plenty of fight left in Me.