where have I been

Well a good question. over the past months a lot has happened/ Submissives came and went actually over the past year they did and questions arose. Not from exterior forces but from me. I had thought I was clear is what and how I said things perhaps I did not they seem to have been mis-inturpeted. I question my training methods and my wants and wishes they may be oo much . Is it that I want truly cannot be fulfilled. I might be a player tah I need rather than a slave. I am still pondering and have sought out a friend to help . I will see if what I demand is possible so my writings might be sporactic at times I do not wish to pass along anything that until I am comfortable with it. ling will stil be here and still under my control on a daily bases for what I have done with her seems to have worked. I will bog about her and other things just not as often and no ling it has nothing to do with my health. It does have to do with emotions, interpetations, understandings and needs . Both of the sub and the Master.

I feel being a good Domm is a lot of work and there should be pay back for the Dom even though it is the needs, wants and desires of the sub that drives the relation. In recent times going back as far as 3 years ago I had done a lot of preliminary training only to see the sub leave and not complete it so that we may move to the next levelt his greatly frustrates a master. that is why the little sabaticle . So I can re-group and re focus thoughts on my needs and training methods and selection process. Time for me to ponder and perhaps re-learn and re-think how to do thinkgs.